Post by Rabid Seagull on Nov 2, 2007 20:33:46 GMT -5
i thought i would just let you guys know what happened to me. i will try to explain the best i can, but i was mostly unconcious thruout this experience. so here it goes...
ok. so i dont know if youve heard of it before, but i have been smoking Salvia Divinorum lately. what is it, is a 100% legal psychoactive drug that has very similar highs to LSD. and each time ive done it, its just been me laughing and seeing things weird like. so i was bored at my friend andrews house a few nights ago, and i was like "im going to take a hit". so i went outside and smoked a bowl...but i didnt inhale right, so i thought it still might work, so i came back in and sat around...nothing...so i went outside to smoke another, and that time i inhaled perfectly. so i started walking back, and then it hit me. i felt like i got shocked with lightning or something and all of a sudden his back yard turned into this really weird place where the plants were very bright and weird looking. so i started freaking out and i ran inside and was like "fuck fuck fuck, im going to trip, take the pipe!" and then it really hit me. i went fully unconcious for about a min and apparently i was walking around really really really weird like and i was apparently trying to speak, but i couldnt and gibberish was coming out. and then i started to come back and i realized i was at andrews house. but it wasnt right. i felt like i wasnt suppost to be here. it was like i was ouside my body and i had no way of getting back. i could talk to my brain though. i could see things differently than i ever could and i could access every single part of my brain and remember every single detail of every single day of my life. i could remember being born. i could remember my first birthday. i remembered being in my moms uterous. it was very weird. and i was afraid that i wouldnt be able to get back to reality. it was the most scared i have ever been in my life. i felt like i died when i was unconcious and i had to be reborn as someone else, but i had to live in jeremy allens body. i was freaking out and screaming "who the fuck am i? how the fuck am i suppost to act?" and just really freaking out about being able to deal with this.
i really cant describe the pure terror i felt and the severe damage this has done to me. even now, 4 days later, im still dealing with this. i believe i have developed PTSD and im beginning to show signs of schitzophrenia. im just so scared and i have no where to go. i have no emotions anymore. i cant love, i cant hate, i cant feel envious, i cant be happy. im just so dull and i dont know how to live with myself because im not myself
ok. so i dont know if youve heard of it before, but i have been smoking Salvia Divinorum lately. what is it, is a 100% legal psychoactive drug that has very similar highs to LSD. and each time ive done it, its just been me laughing and seeing things weird like. so i was bored at my friend andrews house a few nights ago, and i was like "im going to take a hit". so i went outside and smoked a bowl...but i didnt inhale right, so i thought it still might work, so i came back in and sat around...nothing...so i went outside to smoke another, and that time i inhaled perfectly. so i started walking back, and then it hit me. i felt like i got shocked with lightning or something and all of a sudden his back yard turned into this really weird place where the plants were very bright and weird looking. so i started freaking out and i ran inside and was like "fuck fuck fuck, im going to trip, take the pipe!" and then it really hit me. i went fully unconcious for about a min and apparently i was walking around really really really weird like and i was apparently trying to speak, but i couldnt and gibberish was coming out. and then i started to come back and i realized i was at andrews house. but it wasnt right. i felt like i wasnt suppost to be here. it was like i was ouside my body and i had no way of getting back. i could talk to my brain though. i could see things differently than i ever could and i could access every single part of my brain and remember every single detail of every single day of my life. i could remember being born. i could remember my first birthday. i remembered being in my moms uterous. it was very weird. and i was afraid that i wouldnt be able to get back to reality. it was the most scared i have ever been in my life. i felt like i died when i was unconcious and i had to be reborn as someone else, but i had to live in jeremy allens body. i was freaking out and screaming "who the fuck am i? how the fuck am i suppost to act?" and just really freaking out about being able to deal with this.
i really cant describe the pure terror i felt and the severe damage this has done to me. even now, 4 days later, im still dealing with this. i believe i have developed PTSD and im beginning to show signs of schitzophrenia. im just so scared and i have no where to go. i have no emotions anymore. i cant love, i cant hate, i cant feel envious, i cant be happy. im just so dull and i dont know how to live with myself because im not myself